A World Within Her Dreams

There are things not meant for mortal eyes. Online playground of a twisted soul. The fantasies of a little girl, all in one place. You have been warned.

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This blog and everything in it is my property otherwise noted. Read this disclaimer before anything else. I don't force you to read or agree with what I put or write here, so if you see something you don't like, you are more than welcome to close this window. Of course if you do see something you like, you're not allowed to copy, reproduce or take it without my consent—a simple tagboard message about it will do. Break these simple rules and you'll prove yourself to being the biggest ass in the world.

And please bear with the grammatical and typographical errors here. If there's one thing I hate aside from math and glue is copyreading, proofreading, or anything that has to do with checking whatever I've written, really.

The Unwakeable Dreamer

ユキ. Cattleya. Chantal. 17. Taurean. Vain. Narcissistic. Fangirl. Dreamer. Devious. Childish. Clumsy. Has an incredibly short attention span. Stubborn. Misunderstood. Undisputed HYDEist. Yaoi. Incest. Artist. Writer. Web/graphics designer. Otaku. RPer. Certified fangirl. Worth $2,135,822. II - ICTM. Hates Loathes anything Korean and hiphop.

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Yume no Naka's Perfect Moment

32nd layout of Yume no Naka. Features HYDE and his lyrics. Shades of blue, pink, white and lavender. Used Adobe Photoshop CS2 as the image editor. Coding was made on Notepad. Div layers. Some elements might not be compatible with IE. Best viewed in Mozilla Firefox with a 1024x768 screen resolution. Go to past layouts?

Resources for this layout were from the following: Cbox, Colorfilter, DaFont, iMood, Miss M, Photobucket, Selphie's World, Tabulas, and Tenshi no Koe.

And no, as much as I want to be, I am not associated with the sexy man in this layout. I am merely a fan and this is my expression of adoration to him.

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Misplaced anger, haha

In some way or another, I really am an elitist bitch. This is not to be attributed to my being a Lasallian, because I've been an elitist bitch way back I entered DLSU-M. People might not notice it, but I do. Just that I don't blatantly show it, or bothered informing people about it. So I'm doing it now. Actually Jem of Jemjabella.co.uk reminded me that I've been wanting to write something about this.

You might be wondering how come I proclaim being an elitist bitch when some time in the past I've expressed deep loathing for anything elite, like the fact that I didn't want to enter that university at first and that I find elite web cliques pointless and degrading to other web designers. Actually, I only see myself as an elitist bitch whenever I come across anything that has to do with what I do, namely, writing, web design, and graphics design.

When I see works related to the things I mentioned that I don't like, I usually don't express any extreme emotion of disgust or disappointment, but in the depths of my brain I'm already either a) screaming swear words that would possibly scare the hell out of your ancestors, or b) laughing my ass off. It's always been like that, so even if I show blank emotions over something I say I don't like, be a skeptic. If I say I don't like you, you might as well consider yourself hated by me. Just kidding, haha.

Really though. When I see a bad work I just cringe. My left eye twitches and my right brow raises whenever I do. I've been writing for almost four years now and web/graphics designing for about five so I know that I pretty much know the good, the bad, and the ugly with regards to those fields. The criticisms I construct in my head can make you cry worse than Satan can do in his eternal lifetime, but of course I never say/write any of them out loud, and end up expressing something really nice because I'm a saint like that.

For one I tend to be a grammar nazi. I notice the teeniest of mistakes in sentence construction and pull my hair at every misspelled word I see because I'm actually more of a spelling nazi than a grammar nazi. So yes, I do cringe at those horribly constructed English comments on my Friendster page but then mentally laugh afterward because I pity the commenter for trying to match my gosh-awesome English skeelz. Please, just use Filipino or Taglish, okay? That'd be easier for the both of us. I don't go beheading people who don't leave comments in English anyway.

And of course, I'm a pretty harsh web/graphics design critic. I actually have this standard of a good web/graphic work in my mind, so if you don't think we're on the same page, I guess that's okay since everybody has their tastes. I like this ethereal, beautiful style, so if you're more of a grunge person I might say I don't like your work, but don't be offended (much). Be afraid though because I think I'm liking grunge. I will know if people just copy and pasted random images and brushes on a .PSD file and call it a layout because it looks like a layout (did that make sense?), and scoff at that. And just so you know, I don't like the Bevel/Emboss/whatever setting on the Blending Options, so don't go shoving your work to me if it has that lest you want it to have a virtual puke, if that's possible. Simplicity is the key, my good man.

Now that you've read about my being an elitist bitch you might say "OMG YOU'RE SO MEAN WHEN YOU'RE GUILTY OF SOME OF THE THINGS YOU MENTIONED RANTRANTRANTDRAMA." Well, yes, although I am an elitist bitch, I too am human and I err. I misspell and get my grammar mixed up from time to time. In the first place, I hate grammar but given the proofreading/copyreading/writing seminars that I've attended, I can't help being a grammar nazi. Although I do admit to these mistakes, I'm pretty sure that my written works are very tolerable and will not, in any case, make you want to gouge your eyes in horror. There are days when I get conscious of what I write and edit them whenever I notice any mistakes, but most of the time I just don't give a damn. Whenever I read my blog archives I most certainly cringe, but LMAO anyway because I know I've gotten better than that over the years.

As for web designs, I'm also guilty. There are times that I copy-paste a random image and throw in pretty brushes <cough>Yagami Light layout</cough> for the sake of having a new layout, but I'm trying my very best not to do anything similar to that again, and this is the reason why I've been keeping HYDE's face here for more than five months now. Graphics I can't say much because I'm already pretty awesome in it, haha. Really though, I spend more time in my smaller graphics now, and I'm happy with my current style. And I'm not guilty of just pasting brushes/textures in them.

This doesn't mean you should be scared of showing anything to me. In fact, I put my words in the nicest way possible whenever commenting and all that. If I don't like something I just ignore it, but if I really don't like something I let the author know. And also I have a very short attention span so I'd usually just forget whatever it is that I don't like. Just don't show it to me often else I really won't be able to let go. I don't bite, and that's all that matters.