A World Within Her Dreams

There are things not meant for mortal eyes. Online playground of a twisted soul. The fantasies of a little girl, all in one place. You have been warned.

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The Unwakeable Dreamer

ユキ. Cattleya. Chantal. 17. Taurean. Vain. Narcissistic. Fangirl. Dreamer. Devious. Childish. Clumsy. Has an incredibly short attention span. Stubborn. Misunderstood. Undisputed HYDEist. Yaoi. Incest. Artist. Writer. Web/graphics designer. Otaku. RPer. Certified fangirl. Worth $2,135,822. II - ICTM. Hates Loathes anything Korean and hiphop.

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32nd layout of Yume no Naka. Features HYDE and his lyrics. Shades of blue, pink, white and lavender. Used Adobe Photoshop CS2 as the image editor. Coding was made on Notepad. Div layers. Some elements might not be compatible with IE. Best viewed in Mozilla Firefox with a 1024x768 screen resolution. Go to past layouts?

Resources for this layout were from the following: Cbox, Colorfilter, DaFont, iMood, Miss M, Photobucket, Selphie's World, Tabulas, and Tenshi no Koe.

And no, as much as I want to be, I am not associated with the sexy man in this layout. I am merely a fan and this is my expression of adoration to him.

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Yeah, let's go to the lighter side of things, because apparently I'm not as sleepy as I thought I was. Actually I just wanted to share the dream I had earlier before the day ends, or at least, before my day ends. Wow, first time I'm writing about my dream in like... I dunno, months? And I'm not kidding too. Apparently the last time I wrote about my dream was December last year.

Anyway, my dream is, finally, a Gazette related dream! This probably means I'm a real Heretic now (their fan club is called Heresy, lol) because it sure took me a long time before I had my first HYDE dream. Actually I can't remember much of the dream anymore. The only thing I can remember is that the faculty head of my org was kinda telling me to do something while I was boarding an elevator, and when I reached the ground floor I immediately headed out together with some family members and some others and then I conducted this concert. The stage was all pink and for some reason it actually didn't creep me out. Well anyway while singing I asked for help from my family, and some of them went on stage and did a dance number. The crowd liked it, but I thought they weren't liking it so I asked for some help from my companions. One of them went on stage. And who was he?

EEEEE. No, not anybody from Gazette but instead it was Miyavi! He was wearing his outfit from Subarashiki Kana, Kono Sekai. So he went up the stage and then, surprisingly, positioned himself at the very corner of the stage, like there was somebody he didn't want to upstage. And then I asked for more help, and finally Gazette went on stage. I think I only saw three of them actually walk to the stage, Kai was one of them, but I couldn't tell the rest. I think Reita wasn't in the concert itself. If I had to guess, only Kai, Uruha, and Aoi were the ones I saw go up.

The dream ended with my mother nagging me to wake up and telling me how I don't value the education she's giving me. Well anyway, I said it was a Gazette dream, but actually it was more of a Miyavi dream because Miyavi actually got more 'screen time' than any of the Gazeboys. But since my current fandom in music is the GazettE I'm highlighting them more, haha.

Also I had this sudden urge to write fiction. So I'm gonna satisfy that urge by writing something directly on this text box thingy. So if it ends up crappy I hope you forgive me, lol. Well, here goes. It's a fic about my character Kiyomine and his... err, lover, Kumi. Don't worry, this isn't NC17 so yeah, but hints of sex are there, and the language is kinda rough. But really, it's just... somewhat fluff? Also if you need some sort of visual aid just remember that Kiyo-chan takes the appearance of Gazette's Aoi and Kumi-chan takes Miyavi's. So. Onto the short fluff.

Smile

Sometimes a smile is all that takes to make everything alright. Kiyomine knows this, but somehow he can't get this through his pretty little head of his that a simple smile makes everything better. But, of course, it's never too late to learn something.

He brushed his already messy, black hair to the side; he still couldn't figure out a way on how he could get his guitarist to talk to him. So they had sex, big deal. It's not like Kumi was gonna get any kind of disease from him anyway, and giving him the cold shoulder surely wasn't doing anything good for the band. However Kumi knows that he can't blame Kiyomine for what happened last night, when they both know and realize how it was him who led Kiyomine into forcing him to have sex. Let's face it, who kisses a guy in front of two beautiful women? Why not just take one of the girls instead of the guy, right?

With that argument in mind, Kiyomine was sure he's gonna win just in case Kumi initiates yet another fight. At that, his lips curled into his signature smug sneer, and coincidentally found Kumi staring at him.

And what do you know, he smiled back. The boy's grin grew wider.

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He couldn't possibly help but feel really, really weird after doing it with the person he hated the most. What's more disgusting about that is that it's a guy he did it with. It wasn't normal, and here he thought he liked girls all his life. So he couldn't possibly be blamed if he played like crap during the practice, or that nobody can catch him long enough to say anything.

As much as he hated it, he really did find Kiyomine attractive. In fact, the bastard had been occupying his mind for the past... well, actually, ever since they met. And how they met wasn't exactly ordinary either. First time they met they already exposed their torsos to each other.

Unconsciously Kumi found his eyes leaning towards Kiyomine's direction just as he finished either fixing his hair or messing it up even more. One of the things he found attractive about the man is the way he'd smile out of nowhere. At that he smiled as well, because behind that vainglorious attitude of his lies a real dork.

Fuck.

Eyes widening in shock, Kumi froze from where he was standing. That smile just can't mean anything good. He would've banged his head into a wall right now, if not for the fact that he was glued to the ground in fear of something Kiyomine would do if he did move around.

Sometimes a single smile can send all the wrong signals, and then get you fucked.

Yay impulse to write~ but man, that took me almost an hour to finish? Gawd I must really be bad at this.