A World Within Her Dreams

There are things not meant for mortal eyes. Online playground of a twisted soul. The fantasies of a little girl, all in one place. You have been warned.

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The Unwakeable Dreamer

ユキ. Cattleya. Chantal. 17. Taurean. Vain. Narcissistic. Fangirl. Dreamer. Devious. Childish. Clumsy. Has an incredibly short attention span. Stubborn. Misunderstood. Roman Catholic. 大日本異端芸者; the GazettE worshipper. Undisputed HYDEist. Yaoi. Incest. Artist. Writer. Web/graphics designer. Otaku. RPer. Certified fangirl. Worth $2,135,822. II - ICTM. Hates Loathes anything Korean and hiphop.

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Yume no Naka's Perfect Moment

32nd layout of Yume no Naka. Features HYDE and his lyrics. Shades of blue, pink, white and lavender. Used Adobe Photoshop CS2 as the image editor. Coding was made on Notepad. Div layers. Some elements might not be compatible with IE. Best viewed in Mozilla Firefox with a 1024x768 screen resolution. Go to past layouts?

Resources for this layout were from the following: Cbox, Colorfilter, DaFont, iMood, Miss M, Photobucket, Selphie's World, Tabulas, and Tenshi no Koe.

And no, as much as I want to be, I am not associated with the sexy man in this layout. I am merely a fan and this is my expression of adoration to him.

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Okay, so I'm doing a year-ender special too. I'm still ranting about piss though.

Well yesterday after going to Saint Claire's Monastery (or whatever it's actually called), we went to SM Centerpoint to buy some fruits and stuff. After having lunch there, of course, I had to go to the washroom. The lady before me in the line, well, she annoyed me a bit because she was tying her hair up and her hair almost got all over my face. Nothing suss, I tell myself (WTH I'm using Aussie slang now xD). She got in, got out, and annoyed me the second time because she just had to show me that she flushed, meaning, it was still flushing when she got out. I dunno about you guys but I wait until the toilet water's all clean before stepping out of the cubicle. So yeah, I got in next, and whoop-dee-frickin'-do, there was a bit piss on the rim of the toilet bowl. Good thing I asked my mom for tissue before I went to the washroom. It was just... downright disgusting.

Okay, end rant, START SRS BZNS.

2008... hmm. I can't say I liked the year very much. Perhaps I'm only saying this because towards the end of the year, that's when so many things came crashing down. Still, I'm not crying because it happened, I'm ROFLMAOing because it's over. (Yeah, cheap use -- rather, misuse -- of corny quote.)

A lot's happened, though. At the start of 2008 I had the same image as the year before, still resolved to keep my hair long because, you know, girls like their hair long. Couldn't care less about clothing and would put on whatever's handy, though still arriving late at class. Still an anime/manga lover, obsessing over HYDE for all the wrong reasons, but never delving much into J-music. A rather normal otaku, I have to say.

At the middle of the year I got back into writing, RPing to be exact, got to write out some awesome characters (and sometimes I ask myself, why can't I be as [insert awesome adjective here] as my [insert character name here]?), made new OL friends making friends online is awesome. Got even more into yaoi, perhaps a little too much, but all's well that ends well. Received a LOT of blessings, too. Plus, this is when I started obsessing over oshare kei, got my hair cut, and suddenly changed into SUPAA KAWAII VEEKAY LOVAA DESU YO. And then there was the sudden pride due to being a past EIC in my high school's newspaper, all because it had 'The' and 'Gazette' too. If you didn't get it, I'm talking about my ZOMGZFANGIRLIIIING over the band the GazettE. Also started appreciating music a bit more.

And then crash and burn -- enter mild depression, self-pity due to self-analysis, and a whole lot of comparing and envy, most specifically in writing. So many wrong things happened, starting with the death of my iPod, ending with my failure (literally, LOL). Regardless, some things managed to keep my sanity and emotions intact, like being able to write some yaoi stories which, surprisingly, other people actually like, and the new community I belong to.

Above all else, I started feeling His presence a little bit better, though I have to confess I don't read the Bible on a daily basis xD

So many things happened, I can't possibly enumerate everything in here. There was the image change, the new obsession (and going through some heights for that obsession -- talking about spending thousands for a mere magazine, people), gain and loss of friends. Shit happened, and when I say that, I really mean serious shit. Maybe not to me, but to those whom I hold dearest. If I had the choice, I'd like to have started with everything bad towards everything good, December to January. But of course, He had His plans.

Suddenly there's just less than five hours until the new year. It's just another day, really, but once the second hand moves away from twelve, you know there's no coming back. Within that second, you can safely recall things and say, last year was this and that. And now I'm just rambling.

DAMN IT ALL I HATE FIREWORKS. THOSE HELLISH USELESS NOISE POLLUTERS SHOULD BE BANNED. Or at least, the Philippines should invest in quieter and prettier fireworks, like the ones in Japan. Did you know I have a hatred towards fireworks? Now you know. And I can't counter it because neither my Gazette or 12012 or Maximum the Hormone music aren't nearly as loud or annoying as that. Maybe for Mom, it is.

Now to resume headbanging to Zetsubou Billy, because I just learned how awesome MtH is.